Ayonge.

It’s been two years Yet I forget how to breathe - sometimesEveryday is a reminder of how I failed youOn the day you needed me the most.Ayonge, I will have to live with this burdenall the days of my life but I'm not complainingI just hope I am forgiven.

The Other Side of Fear

Let me let you in on a secret - I'm scared of water. It doesn't matter if I'm knee deep or ankle deep. I just don't like it.So when my friend, N, suggested that we add jet skiing to our day trip plans, my immediate answer was a solid "hell to the no". And I…

Unteachable

Unteachable. That's what he called me before he banged the door and left for work. We haven't spoken in three days. Well, I haven't spoken to him. He's done a lot of speaking. The voice notes, the texts, the DMs, the emails, and when none of those worked - the flowers. He could always get…

Lust.

I wouldn't even see them with their clothes on anymore. I welcomed it at first - it was exciting to me. It was when I realized I couldn't stop that I panicked.

Built for love.

Hello! It's been a while since I've talked to you. I'm not even going to sit here and lie - it was intentional. I was running away because I was embarrassed. I'm not the same person you met and I didn't want you to see this part of me. However, I feel like I'm accountable…

Final embrace.

One last embraceOne last smell of your sweet smelling perfumeOne last kiss on the softest of lipsBefore your heart stopsAs I hold your headRocking to the music we first danced to.As I catch your last breathe,And see your eyes open With that famous crooked smile 
One last time.One last touch
One last hope 
One last chance
To…

Better.

Do you remember the promises -the ones we made as we lay counting the squares on my ceiling?Do you remember the words you spoke -the ones that were so gentle and soft it made my ears tingle?Do you remember the tears -the ones that we shed because our lovewas too intense for us to handleDo…

Daddy’s Princess

I heard these words eight years ago in a movie - "Whatever you do; wherever you goalways remember you're daddy's princess" Whenever the devil tries to guilt me. This line is always a reminder that I am, and will always be God's princess. No matter how far I go;Whenever I return, I will always have…

Strains from the inside.

The doctor gave me stronger puffers today He says that there's still a strain in my chest That strain is from missing you, my love missing the sounds of your laughter. Those random breathless moments are from missing your heartwarming hugs the sporadic moments of pain - a way of letting me know it never…

F is for Family.

I travelled home last week for a celebration. It was an amazing family reunion and to be honest, I've only been back a day but I already feel out of place. I miss my family - my safe space. I have felt true happiness this past week; pure joy, security, calmness and peace. Maybe I'll…