It’s been two years
Yet I forget how to breathe - sometimes
Everyday is a reminder of how I failed you
On the day you needed me the most.
Ayonge, I will have to live with this burden
all the days of my life
but I'm not complaining
I just hope I am forgiven.
The doctor gave me stronger puffers today
He says that there's still a strain in my chest
That strain is from missing you, my love
missing the sounds of your laughter.
Those random breathless moments are
from missing your heartwarming hugs
the sporadic moments of pain -
a way of letting me know
it never fully healed
The doctor gave me steroids
he doesn't know that all my heart needs is you.