The Answer.

Hey guys! Long time no chat. I hope you’re treating yourself nicely, eating your greens, staying fit... you know, all the good good things I’m definitely not doing for myself. Last time I told you my struggle with sex and all the holes my mind was jumping through to validate it. Well, I found my…

On King Street…

Woke up to terrible news. Suicide in the building across mine. While I slept, someone succumbed to their thoughts and jumped to their end. It's scary how much power the mind has and the things we are capable of. The fact that one can give into those thoughts of inadequacy, self-hatred and the lies that…

Early Mornings

There’s this online magazine I read called Zikoko. I don’t think I can hype it up enough. It makes me laugh and cry and sometimes, the quizzes make me feel like the writers dabble in black magic because of how accurate the answers are for me. This morning, I read something that made me very…

The Other Side of Fear

Let me let you in on a secret - I'm scared of water. It doesn't matter if I'm knee deep or ankle deep. I just don't like it.So when my friend, N, suggested that we add jet skiing to our day trip plans, my immediate answer was a solid "hell to the no". And I…

Built for love.

Hello! It's been a while since I've talked to you. I'm not even going to sit here and lie - it was intentional. I was running away because I was embarrassed. I'm not the same person you met and I didn't want you to see this part of me. However, I feel like I'm accountable…

Final embrace.

One last embraceOne last smell of your sweet smelling perfumeOne last kiss on the softest of lipsBefore your heart stopsAs I hold your headRocking to the music we first danced to.As I catch your last breathe,And see your eyes open With that famous crooked smile 
One last time.One last touch
One last hope 
One last chance
To…

Better.

Do you remember the promises -the ones we made as we lay counting the squares on my ceiling?Do you remember the words you spoke -the ones that were so gentle and soft it made my ears tingle?Do you remember the tears -the ones that we shed because our lovewas too intense for us to handleDo…

New Year, New Day

Happy new year, beautiful people! I hope you rang in the new year surrounded by the people you love. And if you were alone, I hope you gave yourself lots of love too. Let's be honest, entering a new year isn't always a happy jolly experience. One moment, you're hugging your family and friends after…

Crashing down.

It's eleven days until the year 2018 ends. Last month, I started writing my last post for the year. I wrote about how the year started rough for me and the roller coaster of emotions I experienced; the fact that I cried more than half of the time and had suicidal moments. But then I…

Regrets

The day the mechanic died, I was in the kitchen giving a dance performance to one of Ayefele's songs in front of my cousin. I heard my dad's loud voice from upstairs. He was singing loudly as he usually did. Flakes and I rolled our eyes and shook our heads laughing at his untuned voice…