Early Mornings

There’s this online magazine I read called Zikoko. I don’t think I can hype it up enough. It makes me laugh and cry and sometimes, the quizzes make me feel like the writers dabble in black magic because of how accurate the answers are for me. This morning, I read something that made me very…

The Other Side of Fear

Let me let you in on a secret - I'm scared of water. It doesn't matter if I'm knee deep or ankle deep. I just don't like it.So when my friend, N, suggested that we add jet skiing to our day trip plans, my immediate answer was a solid "hell to the no". And I…

Unteachable

Unteachable. That's what he called me before he banged the door and left for work. We haven't spoken in three days. Well, I haven't spoken to him. He's done a lot of speaking. The voice notes, the texts, the DMs, the emails, and when none of those worked - the flowers. He could always get…

One with you.

I became one with youthe moment I proclaimed You Lord over me I became your heartthe minute you ran towards me Somewhere along,I lost my way; ashamed to find your faceBut your love found meyour peace, wrapped around me tightly  Never in my broken girl's wildest dreamsdid I see such a beautiful redemption happening to me.I am one…

I stand.

I standin every word you have said over meI standin everythingthat you say I amI stand in every truththat your word bringsI stand in your perfect will.Under your shadow;behind the cross.I stand.

Does it hurt to die?

Does it hurt to die?When the soul leaves the bodydoes it slowly drag in a gruesome manner;allowing the body to experiencean unbearable painFor the last timeJust for the fun of it?Or does it leavequickly - in one swoop;so fast that the body doesn't even notice that it's been left aloneWith no life to continue?

Home.

I was able to put this together after months of being under a creative dry spell. I hope you enjoy it. If you have any tips for me to get over this block don't hesitate to drop them in the comments, please.             *             …

Dealing with loss

I'd be the first to let you know that I haven't really dealt with the death of my mother. I have buried it deep down and haven't come to terms with it.  I honestly haven't cried that I lost her. I've cried that she didn't get to see my husband and tease him, cried that…

Back rubs

The back pains started again yesterday. It was a sad day. If this happened last year, I’d have comforted myself in the fact that my mother would be back soon to give me her healing back rubs. "Just a few more months. Be patient" There was nothing to comfort myself in yesterday. Knowing that I’d…

Bald-ish

So I shaved my hair. I had been thinking of shaving my head for over a year but my balls hadn't grown big enough. "What if the shape of your head is bad? Get a boyfriend first, that way, he can't leave when you shave your head. Is it not a sin?" Finally, my balls…