Break me.

I’m currently on a devotional plan called ‘Dangerous Prayers’ It was going well until this morning when I hit a prayer I couldn’t bring myself to pray. ‘Break me’ I struggled and struggled and ended up telling God to give me some time. ‘Let’s come back to this one’, I said. ‘I don’t think I’m…

The Answer.

Hey guys! Long time no chat. I hope you’re treating yourself nicely, eating your greens, staying fit... you know, all the good good things I’m definitely not doing for myself. Last time I told you my struggle with sex and all the holes my mind was jumping through to validate it. Well, I found my…

Always and forever,

I'd like to think you're dancing in Heaven With the Angels spraying you dollars as you sing heavenly songs of praise to the Father Happy Birthday my lover. Always and forever, Your baby.

Commitment Woes.

I have commitment issues. You probably already picked up on it from my posts but I only realized this a couple of months ago when I met new people. I found it extremely difficult to let them into my life and build a relationship with them. Through self-reflection and borderline tearing myself down, I linked…

It’s the little things

Look at me being consistent. I’ll wait for the applause. I have something interesting to share with you. Remember when I told you that my faith was on the rocks (no, no alcohol jokes here lol)? Two weeks ago, a man who was evangelizing walked up to me and handed me a pamphlet. ‘Do you…

On King Street…

Woke up to terrible news. Suicide in the building across mine. While I slept, someone succumbed to their thoughts and jumped to their end. It's scary how much power the mind has and the things we are capable of. The fact that one can give into those thoughts of inadequacy, self-hatred and the lies that…

Early Mornings

There’s this online magazine I read called Zikoko. I don’t think I can hype it up enough. It makes me laugh and cry and sometimes, the quizzes make me feel like the writers dabble in black magic because of how accurate the answers are for me. This morning, I read something that made me very…

The Other Side of Fear

Let me let you in on a secret - I'm scared of water. It doesn't matter if I'm knee deep or ankle deep. I just don't like it.So when my friend, N, suggested that we add jet skiing to our day trip plans, my immediate answer was a solid "hell to the no". And I…

Lust.

I wouldn't even see them with their clothes on anymore. I welcomed it at first - it was exciting to me. It was when I realized I couldn't stop that I panicked.